after today, came to reaLISE one thing.
YES, i have changed.
no longer the one that was so bubbly and happy-g0-lucky,
no longer the one that do nt care abt what happening around her,
no longer the one that thinks that the world is so perfect,
no longer the one that thinks that the world cannot do without her,
no longer the one that do not have problem...

too much things, too much...
changed for the better..
less ignorant
but more tiring..

perhaps i just need some more time, a little more..

guilty, guilty, guilty...
tat's what i am feeling right now..
i MUST/NEED to remove this away from me always..

Exhausted... both mentally n physically..
have been sick for the past 5 days..on and off, haiis..tat kind of feeling sucks ya..
its been a long tym since i look out of bedroom window counting stars, and when i wanted to just now, there are no STARS toDAYY...omfg..i muz be damn unlucky..

owell, understandable, too busy and suay..
busy since the start of this month or perhaps this yr..
preparing for hmk for the following day, sick but still haf to go to sch, rushing home after make up lectures at 7 to teach tuition.. and the list goes on and on....

i noe tat i am ranting and nagging again...
but i noe tat if i continue to be lyk tat, this is no longer me, the one tat i used to noe..
i should stop listening to u and be wad i really am...
no longer controlling u, anymore..
it is a promise to myself....



RANTS and crappy stuff again...
zzz